This morning I knew the SOL20 challenge begins. My chest isn’t pounding. It’s more like a tight rope that doesn’t sway much in the wind or holding your breath before blowing out the candles on your birthday cake, wondering for a second or two is this a worthy wish. My audience doesn’t even know me. Who’s out there? Who’s reading my blog? Am I ready to share my stories?
The jitters are not entirely from writing the actual story. It’s the emotions that are attached to each account. Which one do I share? The new book I’m reading? The hike in the hills? My work challenges? Wondering where my longtime visitor, the feral cat, has ventured off to for the past week. My upcoming presentations? The loss of a friend for speaking my opinion? The sadness of 3 friends/colleagues who have lost their husbands and sibling to heart attaches. Or the challenges my husband faces being the sole caregiver to his mother? These are just a few things I could choose to jot. Life is hectic, and we carry more than just a single story with us. They are all dancing inside my thoughts. One at a time or all at once; they insist on my attention. Part of me is enjoying the idea of being vague. “Push the emotional ones back deep within to avoid those feelings, relish in the fun times, or simply ramble on,” my inner self whispers. I awoke with trepidation.
Perhaps for a month, I will take on each narrative or embracing the idea that each day offers a new tale to tell. After all, it is Read Across America Day tomorrow. I must get busy selecting books to read. Oh, how I love walking into the book store. The smell of coffee in the distance, the thrill of anticipation as you open a book for the first time, the touch of a slippery book cover, and the multitude of choices surrounding me. Most of all, it’s the opportunity to get lost in simple, eloquent tales. I must get ready to go. I choose to redirect my jitters and settle on looking for books to read aloud. Any suggestions? As a writer, tomorrow, I will try to focus the capturing the children’s expressions, voices, and reactions and match the moment with words.